December 23,2015 1:45 AM
Another entry. Another try. Im alwys asking to myself na kelan din kaya ako magkakabillboard? Kelan kaya ako magkakaroon ng maraming followers? Eh yung magbabasa ng blogs ko? As usual, assumera nanaman ako. Hahaha! Well, Kaya ko to naisip it’s bc 7 days to go before my 19th bday and to think na lahat ng kamag anak ko ay iniisip na mag fflight attendant ako. Pressure! SOBRA. And second choice ko lang naman ang tourism. Ang dream job ko talaga is masscom. I want to work behind those cameras. Behind those lights. Behind those smile. Kaya naman hindi ko na talaga alam sa future ko. Nahihirapan ako kasi ang taas ng expectation saakin lalo na ang daddy ko. Pinagmamalaki na FA agad. I look like a lost star in a galaxy.
Kaya ang tanong ko, KELAN KAYA AKO MAGIGING BUO SA PANGARAP KO?
“I guess that’s just part of loving people: You have to give things up. Sometimes you even have to give them up.”
― Lauren Oliver, Delirium
So we have this World literature subject in class. And I am very happy to read those stories ’cause im a bit reader of some books especially romantic tales. And we have this take home quiz and the question hits my life. LOL!
the question was, “WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU CAN SACRIFICE FOR LOVE?”
I stared it for almost 30 minutes and reminisced the moments we have shared. but on my paper, I pointed my love for my family but not for someone whom have i so much loved. What did I sacrifice for our relationship? To be surprised and proud, I chose him over my friends. But i didn’t let him to go deeper unto my skin. But i have nothing against to other girls out there because i have many friends who’s been already touched by their bf’s but its just that my parents still believe in marriage.
Then I realized what he has done to save our relationship. Fortitude? Money? Time? Compare to the things I sacrificed for him. I didn’t even texts my friends because he told me to do it. He erased all of my contact numbers in my phone. I gave to him all of my accounts and even my sim card. AND TO MAKE IT STRAIGHT……
I. AM. FOOL.
He was such a douche bag. My class in world literature reminds and me of him.
But now, at least i learned from my mistakes. And i am just focused on my studies and my future. I need more time to be mature enough and to face another relationship. And as i promised, i won’t let any man to fool me just like how he fooled me. And from the lessons that I’ve learned, ill be more wiser and stronger independent women. 😉